Monday, February 8, 2016


Obsessive-compulsive disorder, or OCD, is a genetic disorder that generally causes extreme discomfort. Sufferers are often riddled with persistent and recurrent impulses, thoughts and images that are unwanted.
OCD can be very severe in people and control their lives. OCD is very severe with Trenton and Andrew is moderately affected by OCD. On some days, Andrew is severely affected too. It just depends on his day. OCD is a characteristic of autism.

This morning we had OT at 8 AM. Trenton went back to his therapist room. He left behind one of his animals. Andrew could not handle the fact that Trenton left his animal. Andrew broke down crying and started to breath real heavy. Andrew went into a full blown meltdown because Trenton left behind one of his animals. I tried everything to calm Andrew down. Nothing worked. Andrew ran to the door that leads to the therapist room but it was locked. Andrew was crying and pounding on it yelling, "Trenton needs his animal."

I finally got a lady to unlock the door for me so I could interrupt Trenton's OT session to give him his animal. When we got back to the waiting room a lady said, "He suffers from bad OCD, doesn't he? I know that was beyond a typical child's reaction to their brother leaving behind a toy."
I smiled and was so glad that someone noticed that and that she wasn't there thinking that he was a spoiled child. I said, " Yes, he has OCD and some days it is really bad and others it is not so bad."

As both boys get older, I see more and more issues with their OCD. Both of them can't get things off their mind. It controls their whole day. I just can't imagine living like that!
OCD goes way beyond what most people might think of ...such as food not touching on the plate or constantly checking something. Those are OCD symptoms but OCD can be very severe and life altering.  Severe OCD can make it impossible to work regularly and to take part in family life.

Here is a good article explaining OCD.

Saturday, February 6, 2016


Since pizza is about the only thing he is eating these days, I had his favorite pizza in the van waiting for him after Harsha:) As you can see, he was all smiles!!

Friday, February 5, 2016

Baby Bunnies

I got the boys some rabbits last summer. The rabbits came from two different places. We asked for females at both places and thought I had both females.
About two weeks ago when I walked outside to feed the rabbits for the day, I had a pleasant bunnies! So much for two females!
Sadly, the male rabbit got to a few of them and killed them. However, I was able to save 3 of them. I am so in love with my babies!! Here is a picture of two of them. The third one looks just like the white one.

Thursday, February 4, 2016

Trying Times

Will it ever get better for Trenton? That question scares me and I leave it to God every day. All I can do is to provide him with the best possible life that he requires..

Trenton is doing as good as he can be in some areas. He thrives off of structure, schedules, and routine. The slightest little thing can throw him off and it is brutal when he is thrown off. For example, we are just now having success at home with potty training again. The change in routine during the holidays made him regress.

Sadly, it is just not changes in his routine that can make things worse for him, it can be changes in his body. I am not sure what is going on right now but Trenton has had more aggressive behavior at home towards himself, others, and our belongings in our house.  He can't handle any unstructured time or he is causing havoc everywhere.

He will only eat fruit roll ups or pizza right now. Last month it was fruit roll ups and chicken nuggets......and NO he won't get hungry enough to eat anything if I don't give him these two items. I refuse to starve my child and have him end up in the hospital on a feeding tube like many people with severe autism. It's on the internet under autism.....just look it up.

If I don't have these items just johnny on the spot when he wants them he is hitting me, attacking Andrew, running into walls, scratching his head, hitting his head, and doing almost any type of self destructive behavior that you can think of.

Trenton's frustrated noises, squeals,  and screams are very unnerving to say the least. In fact, they scare Andrew and Andrew starts crying and is upset for the rest of the night. Trenton maintains these noises all the time.

Trenton's OCD is getting worse. Almost every time before he heads up the stairs in our house he has to put his foot a certain way on the rug before he will walk up the stairs.
Trenton has to open and shut his dvd cases all the time while rearranging them. His OCD rules his life on certain days. It is very sad and very scary!

Like I said, all I can do as a mother is to provide for him daily, advocate. educate, and leave it in God's hands. is a wonderful thing.

Sometimes we have to go through the hard times to realize just how strong we are and just what kind of character and a person we really are.

Wednesday, February 3, 2016

Pajama Day

Pajama Day at school today!!!

I know you all know how much I love being a mother! It is the best thing ever!
I love all the fun things that motherhood brings like pajama day at school. Andrew was so excited for this day. Nothing is better than seeing my boys so happy and to go through all the daily joys that life brings:)

Tuesday, February 2, 2016

Looking to the years ahead

An article that I wrote for was published yesterday. I have received some great feedback. I've had autism moms email me thanking me for sharing my story because they are going through the same things in life.  I feel so blessed!
I write to connect with others. I write to let others know that they are not alone. I write to raise awareness in all areas of a persons life that is affect by autism. Writing has done wonders for me!

Monday, February 1, 2016


Turning 35 hasn't been so bad after all:)
I had a fabulous weekend with my two sons and my family. Spent some time with my brother Brent and his girlfriend Mallory whom we don't see very often.

I love Trenton's smile in this picture! I just had to post it:)
The boys made me the best cards ever today at Harsha. Trenton is showing his off in the picture:)
 To top it off I got gas today for .89 cents a gallon! I felt like I was 20 years younger getting gas in the 90s!! This made me feel great:)