Tuesday, December 31, 2013

Last post of 2013

For my last post of 2013, I want to start off by talking about two of our "big" accomplishments that we have successfully made this year. Believe it or not, one of his biggest areas of improvement is his sleep. I know, I made some jaws drop on this one. His sleep is still not fantastic but it may never be great. That is just one small minute characteristic of autism. Some children and adults with autism can sleep and have never had a problem. Some, on the other hand, have huge sleeping problems and Trenton is one. However, we have made some huge improvements over the past three months.  One year ago he was still in the sleeping pattern of waking up around midnight and running uncontrollably in our house for the next four hours. He would go back to sleep around 4 AM.  (Normally I would get to bed at ten, wake up with Trenton at midnight, go back to sleep from four to five AM) He would do this for a few months and then he would have one night or a few nights where he would sleep for some consecutive hours. My stomach turns just thinking back to that time in our life. I felt like a walking dead person. I constantly was light headed and did not feel human for one second out of my days. Now, a year later, he sleeps much better. He may have one or two nights a week where he does not sleep well. The other five nights (approximately) he will sleep for a good consecutive 6 hours, some nights it may be more like 8 hours. He will have a random week every once in a while where the whole week is bad, but it is nothing like months upon months of bad sleep with no break. I am very happy to say we are improving in sleep!!! In spite of the sleep study and surgery he endured this year to help with his sleep, I do not think either one helped. Nor do I think his medicine really helps. In my honest opinion, it is just him getting a little older and him learning how to deal with his body better.

Another great achievement of 2013 was the beginning of our long lengthy process of picture exchange communication. I say beginning because we are no where near being successful with this but we have introduced it and he is  learning it.  We may be successful once a week or twice a week. For that reason, this is a huge deal for us and I am excited to see how much we will improve in 2014.  We use a picture exchange on his iPad. Thankfully, his iPad was given to us from a great organization. The iPad has offered Trenton many opportunities! Alongside the picture exchange communication, we are also using a picture scheduler with Trenton. I love this! This may be my favorite form of communication with him. On his scheduler, I have a picture for everything that Trenton will do throughout the day. Before we transition from one event to the other, I show him what is next on our schedule. For example, when I pick Trenton up from school and put him in my car, before we leave the parking lot I show him where we are going. This helps him with his transition problems. He understands with pictures and not so much words. If I would say, " We are going to Effingham for some ABA with Heather." He would not retain any of it. He needs a picture to understand. I will post pictures of his scheduler at a late date when I am not so tired.

Trenton still remains non-verbal. In a structured setting, if asked "What is this?" while pointing to a circle, he will say "circle". As far as functional speech, he is non-verbal. He will say hi and bye on most occasions, especially if I tell him too. He will go through phases where he will say "help" when he actually needs help. Nonetheless those situations are few and far between. Majority of the time, I still get the "noise" for help. If I tell him to say help, he may or he may not.  This is my area that I would have liked to make bigger gains in 2013. I want more than anything for him to talk and communicate. It has taken a lot of  blood, sweat, and tears in 2013 in the area of expressive and receptive language. I hope our blood, sweat, and tears will pay off one day and my non verbal Trenton will be talking my leg off and understanding every word of it!!!

I look forward to what 2014 will bring Trenton but at the same time I am sad to see another year go. As I get older, the years fly by and my boys continue to grow. These years may just be our easiest years. Unfortunately, the statistics state that children affected by autism to the degree that Trenton are, very rarely live on their own and will be dependent on family, disability homes, etc. With that said, these years are the easiest years and they are no where close to being easy.  When many families celebrate their child turning 18 during his senior year of high and start making college plans........well....families like ours have to hire an attorney and start the legal paperwork to get legal guardianship over our own son. I have been told this is an expensive, emotionally draining process.  I have no doubt that that is true.

I have been told over time the grieving process gets better. I'm not sure I believe this. It's been almost two years since I knew Trenton was "different". I grieve just as much today as I did then. I always will. My child that was placed on my chest at birth who was perfect and normal (so we  thought) died to autism. Autism left us his beautiful shell. Autism took over his body. Unlike families who have buried a child, we have no grave to go and mourn the death of that normal child that we lost. The pain hurts just as bad as if I physically buried him. I thank the family and friends who have realized this and who have helped us along this grieving process. Every single mother of a child with autism or a child with special needs who had their "normal' child at one point in their life has agreed and said these words them self. Unfortunately, since our children look normal and can run around, in most circumstances, we are not understood. That is so sad! That is why we form our own family and make friends who understand and walk the same path. If we don't have each other, than we feel totally alone while the world keeps going on. We are forced into survival mode. Survival mode is not really living. It's being here, walking around, tending to your duties and doing what you have to do to survive. We are stuck in survival mode until the day we die. With that said, every mom of a special needs child fears their own death. After all, we have a very special person depending on us. More so than most can imagine.

I pray we make big gains in 2014. I will continue to shed blood, sweat, and tears daily in order for Trenton to be the best he can be one day. I am so ever thankful God trusted him to me. Trenton is the most amazing person and I am SO LUCKY to be his Mommy!!! I would not trade him and the life we live due to his disability for anything! Yes, this road stinks but we appreciate a lot more and celebrate the tiniest of accomplishment where most families those accomplishments would have gone unseen. 

Trenton-
You are my inspiration in this life! You keep me going. You are my angel indisguise and I am so lucky to call myself your Mommy! I am so proud of you and everything that you have accomplished this year. You are such a hard worker! I know you don't know this but you have impacted so many people and have changed so many people. You are truly leaving your mark on this world!!
I will continue to dedicate the rest of my life to you! God is with you and I every step of the way. He wraps his arms around us every day and helps us. I know this Bubba!! I feel him working his power through you. You are making great gains and I know we will make lots of gains throughout the next year.
I love you so much Bubba!!!!!
Always and Forever!

Andrew-
You are another inspiration to me! You are an amazing brother to Trenton already. You go through so much living with Trenton and I appreciate all you do for your brother.
I pray the both of you will love each other and have a special bond as you get older. Andrew please stay strong on this journey! I know it is hard but stay strong! I am here for you any time and I know you know that! I am so blessed to have you call me Mommy! I am so lucky and honored to be your Mommy.  God knew what he was doing when he placed us together!! I love you Bubbie!!!

I will close with a few scriptures that help me get through my days.I firmly believe that God give me the strength I have each day. I firmly believe he gives everyone the strength they need in this life, if they are faithful followers of Christ.

Philippians 4:13

 I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.

Romans 8:28

 And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose.

 

Proverbs 3:5-6

 Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding.
In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths.

Psalm 46:1

46 God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble.



Feeling Better Finally!

The boys are  feeling much better today! FINALLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!
 Mommy had fun with the boys on Trenton's bed today! I love moments like these where Trenton lets us on the bed with him.


 Mommy made us a chocolate pie tonight for our New Years! Andrew loved it!!

Monday, December 30, 2013

Autism Video

http://autismawarenesspage.com/what-ive-learned-from-my-autistic-brothers/


Special Moment & More Sickness

Sometimes you just never know when you will get some love from Trenton. Yesterday I had a great moment with Trenton and it happened during church. During the sermon Trenton stopped what he was doing, looked me right in my eye and I felt a connection. It was amazing! Trenton jumped on my lap and let me hug him for a good minute. It was priceless!! It might not sound like much in words on this silly blog but it meant the world to me!! I have not had him look me in my eye  like that for a long time. Yes, he has glanced my way and looked me in my eye but it was a look that went right through me. This was a LOOK! A real look and it was indescribable! I loved every minute of that moment Trenton! Thank you!

Unfortunately, he woke up in the night throwing up again. He obviously had the stomach flu today. We cancelled all therapies and he has barely moved from his room all day. I'm not sure when my boys will catch a break. It is seriously one thing after another these days.
Andrew is still sick with an awful cold. He is coughing, runny/stuffy nose, watery eyes, and very congested. Thankfully, his fever broke last night and he didn't run any today.

1 Peter 5:6-7
Humble yourselves therefore under the mighty hand of God, that he may exalt you in due time: 7Casting all your care upon him; for he careth for you.

Saturday, December 28, 2013

Updates on this and that over the past few days!

Originally I was super excited about the day after Christmas. Trenton had three therapies on the schedule and it would keep him busy for a good part of the day. Between his cold, too much stimulation over Chirstmas, and his out of routine schedule, therapy was not as good as I hoped for. His last session of the day only lasted 20 min. It is suppose to last one hour and that was ABA with Heather. He cried and fussed the whole time and was screaming "all done".
On Friday, Trenton wanted to take his new animal figurines with him to therapy. They went with us everywhere that day. They even went to the restroom with us.




Friday we had no therapies and Trenton still did not feel the best. He stayed in his room a good part of the day which is highly unusual. Needless to say, his energy level was still way down. He wanted to be alone too. When he wanted me, he would go to his doorway and make his "I need help noise". Yes, he has lots of noises and they all sound just a little different. He has a noise for:
  • I need help
  • I am mad
  • I am tired
  • I am bored
  • stimming noises
The five noises all sound different and I know exactly which one he is doing when I hear it.

We did have a successful communication exchange on Friday. At one point I heard him go to his doorway and make the noise for help. Once I walked up to the door way, he grabbed my hand and threw it up in the air. This informs me that he needs something. I go and get his iPad. I pull up his communication app.I brought up his food and drink items. He immediately hit the button for "juice box". I fetch him a juice box and he was thrilled!!! I was thrilled!!! We had a successful communication exchange!!!! YAY!!!!!  Our successful exchanges are few and far between. I pray one day, we will be have many exchanges!

It took him  a very long time to calm his body down for bed last night. He finally went to bed around ten o'clock and I immediately went right behind him. The past few nights he wakes up a lot in the night due to his cold but through the grace of God, he lets me cuddle him back to sleep and we have had no big wakeful periods for a few nights.

This morning by seven AM he is having a mini meltdown. He wanted to go somewhere and of course it is Christmas break which means no school and less therapies. He was feeling better today and was wanting one of the two I believe. I drove him in the car for a bit and that seemed to settle him down after awhile.
Also, Andrew woke up sick today. He officially has Trenton's cough, runny nose, and he has a fever. UGH! Andrew and a fever makes me nervous due to the two febrile seizures he has had.  We go right from the stomach flu to chest colds. UGH!

Oh and for the best part of the last few days......we have been living in the dark. Ha! Trenton will not let us have any lights on in our house.( Sometimes he can hear the humming noises that light bulbs have. Neuro-typical people can't hear but people with sensory processing disorders can.) It gets dark at 5:00 PM. This means we are living in the dark from 5 PM til he goes to bed. Lots of fun let me tell you....


Trenton has really been enjoying his bed full of animals lately. On Christmas night he fell asleep on top of all of his animals.
 Wow!!! Can we get any more??? He loves them!
 Resting with them on Friday afternoon,
Today, Daddy walked in and found him like this...
I can't even remember the last time he took a one hour nap!! This tells me, he still does not feel good.

A few days ago, I turned to see what Andrew was up to and he looked like this...
He is my little ham at times!

Thursday, December 26, 2013

An Autism Christmas

All I can say is that I have one year until I have to worry and stress about the holidays again. Holiday time brings me so many more tears than what I already shed on a daily basis. On Christmas Eve we attempted to go to the Conrad family Christmas. It is a two hour and forty five minute drive one way. We drove that distance and only was able to stay for one hour. During the majority of the hour, I was distracting Trenton from sensory overload so Tim and Andrew could enjoy themselves. However, after one hour sensory overload took over Trenton and we had to leave. When Trenton goes to a door and actually says "bye" with tears rolling down his face, I have to act or else it is a full complete autistic meltdown and the meltdowns can last for hours. Besides sensory overload, Trenton has a cold which does not help.  Consequently, I put Trenton in the car with a video playing while we gathered up presents that Trenton had no interest in unwrapping. We said our "goodbyes", which we just had said our "hellos" not that long ago. Unfortunately, we headed home. This is life with autism and it just plain stinks!

On our drive home, my mind ran away with itself wondering how different our life would be without autism. I was picturing Trenton with his beautiful smile opening up presents and saying, "Thanks Mom! This is just what I wanted!!!" I pictured him running around the house playing with his cousins. Since I let my mind go there, I found myself crying on the way home and picturing Trenton free from his struggles. With that said, it will be a glorious day when Trenton and I are both in heaven and I get to see my baby without the trials and tribulations that this world has brought upon him. Trenton is one of the many earthly reasons why I strive to live that straight and narrow life so we can rejoice free of trials in heaven and meet my first baby too!

 Christmas Day was another day of struggles. Another reminder of how different our life is. A reminder of how my dream of having children and the joys that Christmas brings are far from the Christmas movies you can find on TV where life is normal and Christmas is nothing less than perfect.  That would just be absurd if a movie was made showing how families living with autism celebrate the holidays now wouldn't it! If there was a movie it would entail nothing but anxiety and tears for the child and parents. The movie would contain families not accepting family invitations for a Christmas gathering. Instead, the families would live just a normal routine day in the comfort of their own prison cell in order to save their child from any extra anxiety or fear that they already have daily. The utmost priority is your child and their best interest. After all, we, the parents, had the pleasure of living 30 normal years on this Earth. Thirty years of celebrating the holidays without stress, anxiety, sleepless nights, meltdowns, etc. So is it really that big of deal if we can't have a normal holiday? No! It really isn't. After all, we were blessed with 30 years of a normal life where Trenton has never had a normal life.

On Christmas morning Mommy, Daddy, and Andrew unwrapped a few gifts. Trenton wanted nothing to do with it and stayed in his room. I eventually brought two presents to him and he unwrapped one and Mommy unwrapped the other. Later in the morning, we went to Nana and Pop's for breakfast. Trenton lasted two hours. Mommy took him home for a little over one hour. Once he had recuperated, we went back to Nana's for one hour. Trenton did not participate in the gift opening at Nana's today either. He hid out in Nana's toy room all day laying on her loveseat. Mommy did bring him a few gifts into the room and he opened them. Later in the evening, he opened up some when it was just Mommy and him at home.  This holiday season has broke my broken heart more than one can imagine. Only another mom who faced these battles can relate.

Here are a few pictures from our past few days.

I love this necklace! It has the puzzle piece, T for Trenton, and his birthstone1
 While we were opening our gifts, he was content to hang out with his animals.
 Andrew loved opening gifts!

 We brought him a gift and his stocking to him.
 Later at Nana's house, he was content to hang out by himself. He didn't feel very well still. A runny nose and cough can take it out of a person.




Monday, December 23, 2013

Rough Few Days

It's been very rough the past few days. The total amount of sleep Trenton and I have received the past three nights does not add up to what one person should get in one night. It has been extremely horrible! Just like every other book I have read about a family raising a child with autism that is effected like Trenton, the bad sleep pattern always comes back. There is no sitting back and watching him play in the night. He is either running and doing laps in our house making his noises or he is fussy and crying. Last night he fussed and cried for 5 1/2 hours until  his body finally let him go to sleep around 4 AM. Unfortunately, his body won't let him rest and he is up for the day at 6:30 AM. I was EXTREMELY jealous of Tim and Andrew that were sleeping soundly.  To top it off, he has developed a bad cough today.  It's bad enough to have a healthy Trenton who does not sleep.  When Trenton is sick and doesn't sleep, it's a person's living nightmare! And it's the week of Christmas. Joy to the World......UGH!

A few pictures of his most famous lines the past week.




Saturday, December 21, 2013

One down!

I have had the pleasure of getting  to know some awesome special needs parents since being on this journey. Majority of the autism moms like me can't wait til the holidays are over. Thanks goodness we have one celebration down! Trenton did not have a very good day. He slept awful last night which played a role. A child with autism that has the sensory processing needs like Trenton, can only handle so much. Yes, they can take it in and last for awhile but when it is time to go, it is time to go. Nana and Pops house is like home to Trenton. It seriously is his second home. With the stimulation of people, presents, conversation, he only lasted three hours in his second home. The Christmas celebration started off with Mommy in tears and ended with Mommy, Andrew, and Trenton in tears. Why do we put our child through this??? If it was my choice I wouldn't. Not one second of it is relaxing and enjoyable.
I have educated myself enough to know that what he is taking in sounds like 50 stereos going off on full blast, voices are coming at him from the ceiling, floor, and every which direction you can imagine. When he happens to glance your way in an environment that is full of sensory overload,  he might see your face as a distorted alien. I could mention more but my point is, I know what it is doing to him and it makes me sick to my stomach! Again, why do we put our child and loved one through this??
I have came across some amazing blogs written by moms and dads of children with special needs, particularly autism. Each and everyone of them feel the exact same way. Why do I write? I write just like they do, so we all don't feel alone!!
Our next Christmas is in a bigger house. Maybe we will last longer! Can't wait for this season to be over with!

I do want to share some pretty awesome autism gifts we received today. First, Nana made Trenton an autism quilt! I love it!
 A few examples of the squares on the quilt.

 We also received some autism wall decor. This is awesome!



Christmas in the Park

Trenton actually sat on Santa's lap this year!! Andrew would not even come within a ten foot pole of Santa. Of course Trenton was trying to get off his lap the whole time but I managed to get a few good pictures. Santa was asking Trenton what he wanted for Christmas and how old he was. I think Santa was wondering why he wasn't answering him. I was fighting back tears and if I opened my mouth I would have shouted, "He has autism. He can't answer you but how I wish he could!!!!"
However, this is big time progress for us! A year ago, we would not have even been able to do this. Don't get me wrong, we had to fight him and hold him down everywhere and not one second of relaxing and enjoying the moment. The point is, we accomplished it without a meltdown!

 He LOVED the petting zoo. He could have stayed in there all night and fed the animals. Andrew could have cared less.

We rode The Toot through the Christmas lights. Neither boy had an expression on their face but I will assume they liked it.

Friday, December 20, 2013

Feeling Better

Andrew has really not felt good this week but he is getting better! The only remnants of his flu left  is diarrhea.


Trenton's Christmas Party

I had the pleasure of attending Trenton's Christmas party yesterday. I love being able to attend functions at his school! However, it is always bitter sweet to watch him and how different he is from the other children.
He might be sitting by the other children but it is very obvious he is in his own world. However, he does an excellent job following his routine!!! I am so proud of him!

Trenton and his classmates made Reindeer food!

Trenton's turn to add some ingredients!

 Snack time!

 Time to open presents!

Trenton had a great Christmas party at school.

Wednesday, December 18, 2013

Serenity Prayer

God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.

Living one day at a time;
Enjoying one moment at a time;
Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
Taking, as He did, this sinful world
as it is, not as I would have it;
Trusting that He will make all things right
if I surrender to His Will;
That I may be reasonably happy in this life
and supremely happy with Him
Forever in the next.
Amen.

Catching you up!

The past few days have been busy and crazy like normal. Trenton had the flu on Monday.  Therefore, he stayed home from school and all of his therapies were cancelled. Tuesday morning he is better and we have our normal day! I picked him up from school and we headed to our ABA session with Heather.  On our 40 minute drive to see Heather, Trenton has a massive explosion of diarrhea.( I am only telling you this story because most of you shed tears of sorrow with me daily and tears of joy. Now, maybe you can get a good little laugh out of our crazy Tuesday!) Once I heard it and smelled it, my first thought was, "We have 25 minutes til we have to get there. What am I going to do?"  Transitioning Trenton in and out of a vehicle can be a nightmare on most days. Walking into a gas station with a child with autism can be a nightmare! Taking a three year old into a public restroom who is not potty trained is not a good situation. The baby changing table does not hold a three year old boy with autism.

 I had no choice. I had to pull over at a gas station and change him.  I grabbed the diaper bag, open up his door to get him out of his car seat. The second I get him out of his car seat, I see a puddle of poop in his car seat, poop up his back, poop all down the back of his jeans, and now it is all over me! Great! He starts kicking and fighting me which means no time to think about the poop I just had to get in the restroom ASAP!
I go into the handicap stall, strip his clothes off of him, and go to clean the poop from his whole entire back side and I discover I have no wipes! They fell out of my diaper bag in the mist of his kicking episodes. Wetting toilet paper does not work very good and of course it is a restroom with hand air dryers and no paper towels. Lovely! I quickly cleaned him up the best I could, change his clothes, cleaned it off of me the best I could and we were off to the car. I put him in Andrew's seat and thank goodness Trenton did not mind this. On some days, he would not have been able to handle not being in HIS car seat.

We arrive at therapy smelling like poop. I take him into the restroom with my wipes and clean him up good this time. Trenton goes into therapy, I go outside to clean the puddle of diarrhea out of his car seat. I go back into therapy and sit and listen. Now it didn't take me long to realize that I still reeked of poop! I could barely concentrate on his therapy session because I was wondering if everyone in the place could smell me. I needed a change of clothes but what 32 year old carries a change of clothes with her in case her child gets poop on her. By the time we left therapy I felt like I had played the leading role of a family comedy movie.
On our way home, Trenton has another episode of massive diarrhea. This time we were not far from Nana's house where we were picking up Andrew. I get him out of his car seat and yes we have another puddle of diarrhea and poop everywhere. I have never in my life smelled so much like poop until I was able to take a shower that evening.

We had a much better day today with no huge poop messes!! However, Andrew has came down with the flu now. I wonder if this means Tim and I are next?

On another note, Trenton has been doing a lot of spinning lately. I am not sure why. I know a lot of children with autism spin for a stim. I don't know if the spinning will last or if it is just a phase. He has been a little more silent for me the past few days. However, he did say the words "white" "juice" and a few other words today at school. During his therapies, he continues to say or try to say the animal names, colors, shapes, and numbers.

There are days when I get so excited that Trenton repeated a few words and I think about how much progress we have made and then there are moments where it is a slap in the face about how much he truly does not understand and get the concept of. For example, the computer was open to amazon one day and in the middle of trying to manage life with the boys at home I was trying to do some Christmas shopping. (Going Christmas shopping for the day is unheard of when raising a child like Trenton. I do EVERYTHING online, even groceries sometimes.) Well, I accidentally left the screen open and Trenton saw the toys that were on the computer. He took my hand and threw my hand to the computer. I told him numerous times that it was just a picture. He didn't understand and for the next hour I dealt with a huge meltdown. He could not stop himself from crying, kicking, hitting, screaming, etc. It was bad. That is a moment when it's like, "Wow! We  have such a long way to go." That is why one of the verses of the Bible I live by is...

 Romans 12:12
Rejoicing in hope; patient in tribulation; continuing instant in prayer;

I rejoice in our progress and in constant prayer about our struggles.

Trenton got a Snowman as a gift today and he loved it!! He suggles it and two of his stuffed animals on the way to therapy.


Monday, December 16, 2013

Speak Smooth & N-Met

For all the Mommy's out there with chidren with autism, I want to share two of the supplements that Trenton is on. The first one, is my favorite. It is called Speak Smooth. By far, I think Speak Smooth has helped him the most. I am a big fan of Omega-3 Fatty acids for anyone with any type of developmental problem, especially autism.

Speak smooth combines key nutrients for children with special nutritional requirements in a delicious, smooth liquid. 
The highly concentrated omega-3 found in speak smooth is combined with 2 forms of vitamin E, 2 forms of vitamin K, and GLA to address the needs of children with special nutritional requirements.  Speak smooth contains two different types of vitamin E: d-alpha tocopherol and gamma tocopherol.  Gamma tocopherol provides protection against nitrogen-based free radicals which alpha tocopherol cannot do.  D-alpha tocopherol is a powerful antioxidant working in the lipid portion of cell membranes.  Without adequate levels of d-alpha, omega-3 fats oxidize and are unlikely to remain in a functional form.  The two nutrients work synergistically to prevent oxidation of the fat-containing outer layer of cells and enhance the health benefits of omega-3.
EPA and DHA omega-3 fatty acids
EPA and DHA always occur together in nature and work synergistically in the body.  EPA provides metabolic support for proper nerve & brain cell function while DHA provides structural support.  Residing primarily in cell membranes, EPA supports immune and inflammatory conditions.  DHA is primarily found in brain cell membranes and supports brain function.  These highly functional omega-3 fats and vitamin E help to counteract malabsorption and cell oxidation.
Due to the theoretical blood thinning effects of omega-3 and vitamin E, vitamin K (a normal and healthy blood clotting nutrient) is also included.  This precise combination of  ingredients is delivered in a delicious, smoothie-type liquid that kids will actually ask to take.


 The other supplement I want to share is N-Met.
To help his autistic son, Dr. Pardee invented N-MET formula. The overwhelmingly successful results experienced with his son, other children and many adults affected by Sensory Overload encouraged them to share their discovery.
     Dr. Pardee served on the faculty at Weill Cornell Medical College of Cornell University from 1982-2009, where he was  Associate Dean of the Weill Cornell Graduate School of Medical Sciences from 1997-2007, and Associate Dean of Research from 2007-2009.

N-Met is suppose to do the following:
1. Reduced Anger & Aggression
N-MET drives production of L-Glycine in the brain to reduce anger, tantrums, and aggression.

Sunday, December 15, 2013

To my boys...

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My boys!

Before the boys and Mommy left for church this morning, I noticed they were playing side by side fairly well. I just had to take a picture! Andrew sure does love Trenton! I look forward to watching these boys grow and watch how Andrew's love will grow strong for his brother! I am so lucky to be their Mommy! I tell them everyday that God sure knew what he was doing when he put us together!

 We went to Nana and Pop's house and enjoyed our afternoon!
 Trenton loves puzzles!

A few other pictures from the past few days.
Trenton cuddled up on the couch and fell asleep. He just looked so cute after his long battle of going to sleep.
 Trenton enjoyed playing with his puppy and giving him drinks from his sippy.
 I got a glimpse and a smile!


 Trenton did not want his cinnamon roll so he gave it to his horse. Adorable!!


Psalm 46:1

God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble.

We are so lucky to have such an amazing God! Without him I would have already crumbled. He keeps me going!