Trusting God is absolutely amazing! The past few months I have questioned myself on whether or not Trenton loved me. I have wondered if I am any more special to him than his therapist or other people he sees. Deep down I know better but when he can't express it, it is human nature to wonder and question. It is something that has bothered me a lot a few months ago. I have really put my trust in God lately knowing that I am more special to Trenton than he can let me know. I was trusting God that he would let me know this soon!
Yesterday, I spent my entire day working on putting a protector on our fence while both boys were out of the house at therapy.( I think I have a very long job ahead of me on this project. One person working by themselves does not get very far. Wish I had a crew of about 20 people to knock it out in one day.) The whole time I was sweating bullets in the sun thinking about Trenton and how I wished he could tell me. Well, I got my answer today!
Last week I heard him say, " I love you." Tonight, as I was walking through the kitchen I hear Trenton say, " I love". I didn't think anything of it at first. I knew he was sitting in front of the refrigerator spelling words so I just thought he was spelling the word "love" like he does from time to time. Something made me stop to see what he was doing and I am so glad I did! As he was saying, " I love", he spelled Mommy on the refrigerator! It brings tears to my eyes typing this! I know with all of my heart that he loves me and I am special to him like a Mommy should be!
So proud to be your Mommy, Trenton! I could not have asked for a better tour guide on this journey we walk daily together!